Well being

Wow.


So last night (or rather this morning) 3am I looked through my Facebook photos trying to look for the different uniforms I wore before.
But turns out I was looking more at the people who left me with good memories.
Photos are indeed one of the best thing used to capture that moment of happiness. Be it good memories or bad, you can never forget what happened at the instant you see a photo.

Then now, because I wanted to blog, I tried to see if I could upload pictures here directly from my iPad. Turns out it brought me to an album which has ALL the photos I used to upload to this blog.
So it took me through some of the good memories.

In this blog it consists of photos of my ex boyfriends, used to be really close girlfriends and along with some close friends.
Sadly, almost all the girls featured in my blog are no longer close to me.
And the ex boyfriends all have a life of their own.
The remaining friends, oh yes maybe still meet up once in blue moon.


So what happened?
I often ask myself why this why that. (If you follow my twitter you will know)
But the why that I never fail to NOT get over with is why do relationship/friendship fail.
So many girlfriends especially just walked out of my life easily.
What happened? I forgot. (i have really bad memory for unhappy things)
Sometimes (like now) thinking back I will feel sad.  Sad at the fact that someone I once trust so much, and would love to do all the bitching shopping whatever girls would do with friend is no longer around.
Not by my side at least. Then I realise that's part of growing up right? They always say people come and go.

Well, feeling more guilty was the fact that I left several guys so heartbroken.
Those pictures reminded me of how happy we were when we were together. Looking at their smiling faces I knew we were genuinely happy.
Then again what happened?
Sorry but I fell for someone else.
Although I still miss the times with each and everyone of you, I know our fate has come to an end. There will not be a chance that I might be back with you, but I really loved the times we were together.
I hope each of you are happy with your life now, at least I will feel better?

To my current boyfriend, amazingly we went through close to 2 years already.
So far so good? He might not be my ideal kind of man but I am glad to have him still! (In fact while typing this he just came down to send me one bottle of plain water)
I am sorry I have been comparing you with the previous one, I should know you both are so different but it's my habit.

We will soon enter another phase of life, where I will start working and so many things will change.
I will not know if we will still have time for each other, since now already we are struggling with work commitments, but I hope all goes well. If not I can really go be a nun. LOL


So bloggy, thank you too, for being my listening ear through everything.
I might not have talked to you as often now, but I am thankful you remembered everything I told you!
I will try my best to talk more to you, once I change my phone ok!


AND TO ALL WHO ARE STILL WITH ME, THANK YOU FOR BEING THERE. I PROMISE TO TREASURE EACH AND EVERYONE OF YOU. I LOVE YOU.

UGLY

Because I know at least Hannah & Joey is stalking my blog, so I'll post (:

Facts about today/ what I have been thinking:

1. My left middle finger hurts like a dog.

This is because I was practicing guitar for someone's birthday video. Was like, OMG. Kill me?!

But I was pro enough to learn through Youtube! :D

2. Screw the fucking class outing.

I swear to Jesus Christ/ Mother Mary/Guanyi pusha/Sun Wukong and all the other religions god I will never organize such stupid outing again.

Because all i get in the end is anger due to receiving all the lame and stupid excuses.

Cmon, get a life. JUST ONE FUCKING DAY WILL KILL YOU OR MAKE YOU FAIL EXAMS MEH?!

Whatever, I still prefer clique outing :)

3. Quit CCA, do something constructive.

Not exactly my CCA is bad, but I really got no time for it. But how should I tell Sakina? :(

4. Studyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.

I always tell myself must study. But what do I do in the end? Hais.

5. Why do people always like to get hurt by the same person twice?

6. I yearn for a couple date soon! <3

7. Waxing next friday should be cool!

8. Diet, BURN FATS.

9. Too many things on my mind. I should get an organizer soon.

10. Last of all, thanks to Hannah, Joey & Khairul for making my life in Poly awesome <3

Not forgetting my dear baby boy, goodluck for your prelims!

What I am to you?

Many times, I ask myself:

Who really cares about me?

The answer was never in my head, I really don't know who. If you force me to give out some answers, obviously it's my mum and nanny.
But will there be anyone else?

I was talking to a friend today, explaining what type of person I am.
Here is the summary:

I love to cry;
Hide things to myself;
Tried to share but always don't get back what I want;
Love to help friends with their problems;
Damn lazy;
No motivation- unless important la;
I share every single thing with people whom I love - Boyfriend;
Gullible;
Moodswing like mad;
Always do things already then regret;
Never had good relationship with girls;
I can never be good;

Ultimately, crying is my best friend.

My blog also! Though I keep neglecting it :( Sorry.



I don't want to be a pain in his ass you know, causing more trouble to him.
I want him to be happy too.
But today, I was really not feeling well and happy already, but his attention was all on his friend and brother.
I think I over reacted, I felt that he don't really give a damn to me.



And I think, I should open up.
I cannot treat my blog like a throw up place.
I used to blog happily, but why have things become like I sad only come blog?

My life have changed so much.
I don't want to be sad already, must be happy!



I know my blog loves me,
I love myself also.
Maybe I should give us both time.
Shouldn't think about him so much, being such a glue.
Fuck it. That shall be it :)


I should be happy more, hardworking also please :)

What to Do ?

Aiya, I very bored leh.

.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.

My stupid Boyfriend Ian Yeo is like gambling now?!
Yet to reply his super.awesome.bored.&sweet.girlfriend.
If baby you're reading this,
YOU WANNA DIE IS IT?!?!

You better treat me asap or you can forget about your COACH wallet.
HA HA HA.


Wah, tomorrow working sia. I think now hor I blog like I talk only.
Think of what just type.
Lol. Then hor, my tagboard:

Can you all use different names?! Like A, B or C la. Anything but passerby cause I really don't know who to reply or what ?

I wanna go CNY shopping leh! FISHHHHH.
But then I very pok liao. Also don't know spend on what.
Don't care. Maybe I shop online. HAHAHA. VERYVERY GOOD.

Baby ar, maybe I should call you something else already.
Cause Baby too common ! :D

.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.

):
Very sad leh. Write till now still no reply from him.
Asshole. Gamble till throw me aside.
HUMPH.

Then also, now I workworkwork everyday, don't even have time for him. Have, he also schooling. WHERE GOT TIME YOU TELL ME?! FUCKKK, I wanna get married. :p


I look forward to many things man.
Maybe I should write a list down soon.
Then blog it :D , machiam hinting people for BIRTHDAY GIFT only !

Whatever it is, FIRST THING ON MIND IS THE COACH WALLET.
HAHAHAHHA. COMETOMUMMYASAP! <3333333333>a lil only & DAYBREAKER SUCKS.


PERM HAIR IS NEXT!

The 280th.

Wanted to post something badly.
But was super affected by something.

So let's just make it a short one.

____________________________________________________

So fast, one year has past.
What have I went through this year?

Family.

Haven't really been seeing my nanny's family a lot this year due to major exams,
it's time to really do some catching up.
I really hope we can all see each other soon.
With new members to the big family.

To my own family.
I wish that I haven't had such an immature brother.

Friends.

Some people are so hypocrites.
I knew that all along. Just that this year I went through more of it.
Thought I really could overcome the fact that I don't have friends.
But He was right. My friends sucked. They are just scumbags that ask me out when they need me.
I had enough. I am dumb. I still am.
So what if I'm complaining everyday?

Let's just hope new year I will meet more trustworthy and reliable friends.

School.

One entire year of mugging is finally over.
All the heartaches from CCA, all the waking up early, lazy go to school.
Everything is finally over.
Now it's just the fear of getting results.

I'm so gonna miss Dunman.

Love.

This year is a really big breakthrough.
I broke out of the bf-in-the-same-school curse & 4months-only-rs curse.
However I broke another innocent guy's heart.
Maybe it's just Fate.

Yet I feel that this rs is painful too.
Have we really understood each other?

_______________________________________________________

With one year almost gone, another year is to come.
What's my resolution?

Okay, I realised I didn't blog about it.
Or I couldn't find it.
Whatever, then this is the coming year one:

1. Save more MONEYYYY$$$.
2. Stop your stubborn behavior, learn to listen to people.
3. Do everything you can to keep your relationship with people good, esp towards him.
4. No more playing/ fooling around. Study hard.
5. Be as nice to your mother, brother. As much as possible.

Should be do-able.
Let's see what is my list of what-i-want then:

• I want him to know that he does makes a difference in my life.
• I want him to treat me better, understand me more.
• A coach bag!
• CAMERA, POLAROID!
• More clothes!
• BLOG MORE!
  
• Make-ups!
• A really chio diamond! (necklace, ring whatever)
• WATCH!
• Pretty nails!
• Last of all, long long with ian yeo huang hui. ♥
  

Okay la, I really don't know what else.
I'm like browsing through this year's entries.
I really hope I can do things well in coming year.
I'm off.

Goodbye.

Lost It All.

To begin with, I think I've always lacked of Confidence.

Since young I guess.
I'm not like a babe, not like a smart girl, not even a sociable person.

Whenever I meet some one unfamiliar, I'll just try to avoid as much as possible.
I hate meeting new people, not unless it's someone I'm comfortable with.
& now, after I know I'm not always the best, not at least any good, I've lost it all.

My O levels mother tongue, just as expected, I got a B3.
I am not sad, I'm just kinda dishearten.
My Oral, being one of my strongest point, actually became my weakest factor.
I merely passed it.

Maybe like I've said before, it's my luck.
I got a tough conversation topic, and I'm not doing well.
Am I putting in enough effort?
I guess not at all.


My English oral is coming, will I do well enough?


Leaving this aside, not only studies makes me lose my confidence, even friends does.
I've realised, sometimes when you try so hard to be someone you're not, everything will just hit you back twice as much.
I should just stick to my old friends, or just being alone. Right?

But I know there are definitely some friends I can rely on.
They are the one who don't leave me, who don't speak back behind my backs.
At least, they are those who label me as their "Friend".

Going out as a group would have many joy & laughter,
but how many are actually involved?
That's why, I prefer to go out in small group.
Everything will just be shared among us.
Wouldn't that be better?


But afterall, I'm glad.
Putting all these problems aside, I still have my family.
My nanny's family as well.
They are ultimately my happiness.
If one day, even they choose to quarrel with me, I guess it'll just be another breakdown for me.


My food poisoning is almost over, just that my appetite still haven't really much recovered.
I know my emotions lately had been bad, sorry for those who put up with me.
Stomach cramp and headache just drives me mad.


Last quote for the day:

Always think of those who are in worst state when you want to complain.

Blogger is my bestest friend, I bet it applies to many too.

Talent, Occupation.

Well, as much as exams are over,

what students dread most is here!

RESULTS !

Tell me who loves results more than exams?

Sure you do, when you really think you can make it.

But for this MidYear, I think most of us are just demoralized.

That includes me for sure.

I already had the feeling that I wasn't prepared for Os just after the second day of exams?

It's nuts, but seriously,

WHY THE HELL WOULD SCHOOLS GIVE PAPERS WHICH ONLY DEMORALIZES US?

I don't get that.

Yes, to push us, get better results, what-so-ever.

But hey, when we don't do well for this papers, you all say we don't study hard.

Just like what Adam Khoo workshop taught us,

"Do you even think all the Triangles we learn in Maths we be
applicable in future?"

Don't tell me you would want to calculate the possibility of you getting a job in the future.

I know, we are students.

We must study. But can't schools encourage us in another way?

Now I'm so stressed I really wished that I wasn't born.

Or at least could just go out to work.

Maybe I can push my luck.

Since I love to sing, why not go for audition?

Like Singapore Idol, whatever.

That's my forte.

I can be blogger too! :D

( Chenpei really wish to continue ranting... )

But whatever it is, I just have to do my best.

For that, only I know if I'm really pushing my potentials.

So people, whatever you do, always give it your best.

Even you may not be the Best,

But you're the Best yourself & you know it.

I just have to try harder next time.

This time is really horrendous.

Anyway, dark horse won AI !

Like even I'm amazed.

KRIS ALLEN LEHHHHHHH!

As humble as he is, I still remember he said:

" I may not be vocally good/better than the rest, but I'll always do my
best"

(something like that)

Yes! And because he constantly work hard, it paid off!

With much determination I'm sure we all can too!

Yea, the champion song was awesome too :D

(though I am still disappointed that Danny was out, but Kris is handsome too! :x )

Alright, that's all I think.

Dumpling Festival is coming, I want to "wrap dumpling" if I'm free! :DDD

Reflecting.

Well, I was reading my blog post, the at least one year ago ones,
& it did really made me laugh a lil.
Somehow, the words "sweetheart" or "lohfooksoon" or even "dar" & "boyfriend" didn't even make my heart pump harder.
So maybe it was just really happy memories :)

I realised I changed alot.
Be it pictures, or even the way I blogged.
My post used to be colourful & wordy. With pictures if it is needed.
But now it's totally dead.
Maybe that comes with age :/

If you're interested you can always feel free to look at the side,
Under Rewind, choose one month and read it up!
:D

Here is the resolutions I set for myself in the beginning of the month;

so let's see if I did it ;/

.

.

.

.

.

.

.

Study hard ; No slacking , Play hard too . ( I did it! I studied hard; but could be better! :] )
Be a better daughter ; friend ; girlfriend ;D ( No, I did not go any good here. No bf also. )
Learn to adapt to people ; not people adapt to you . ( still trying maybe? )
Try not to keep things to myself ; talk to good friends . ( I did try hor! but still... )
Save more money , stop asking money from mummy if possible . ( Yes, I am working, what do you think? )
Let everything in the past be history ; write a new story for myself :)( I did write something new, didn't I? )

So yea, I think I managed to hit all the targets, except the good daughter, girlfriend whatever.
okay, I am really sleepy. I should read more posts that I used to blog.
Seeyou! :)

Hello , Bye Bye/

Hello Blog.

I was so random, should be sleeping by now, but I have the sudden urge to blog.
Why? There are too many things going through my mind I guess.
I sent my phone for repair already.
Partially was because I was finding a proper time to do so & I've completed my PokeMon Red.

But I did something dumb.
There was this draft, I wanted to send to him, I didn't.
Before I knew it, I left the phone with the person & left the place.
Maybe I was dumb enough to wait till before I want to repair then send that SMS ba.

So as I was reading through "Secrets" on my old phone,
I found out many forgotten stuffs.
I realised many guys actually appeared in my life- till now.
Not that I got many ex la !
Actually I'm stupid la, cause people that appear in your life are either male or female.

Something about all these people, I guess it's really just the wrong time.
Even though we share the same thoughts, we cannot be together.
Time is such an important factor. It just spoils the whole thing.
Someone once said this to me " If you know that person for too long, you guys can't be together anymore."
I agree, but now then I know it's not to an large extent.

* Suddenly I lost my chain of thoughts. *

Can someone tell me what is in me that makes me special?
As in attractive to guys?
Cause there is this guy telling me I got something in me.
Actually got two :/
I'm nonsensing again.

I guess I've let many of them down.
Cause usually it leads to nowhere.
I would say almost everytime.
Sorry, I'm really sorry.

But why do the relationships I treasure most always end up in a mess?
It has happened twice already.
Maybe everything is just wrong.
Whatever it is, I hope everything will be back soon.
Cause I really don't know what will get into me.

Bye bye Blog.

Here We Are, Closer Again.

Today is 20.08.2008 . Have you guys noticed it?
I bet many of you didn't know it was a double date.
Just like me, I walked out this morning, & saw a rainbow.

Immediately, it lights up my mood.
& I thought of this:

I see a
rainbow, across the big blue sky.

It lights up my
dull mood, with a happy smile.

The rainbow is
colourful, but the rain is falling as well.

The droplets of
rain fell on my head;

Everyone is
avoiding the rain - is it really that scary?

As I walked
further down the road,

the rainbow
"hid" away from me.

It disappeared.
The clouds are like its accomplice,

covering it
from my sight.

The clouds were
grey.

However, on the
other side of my vision, the sky was of a majestic beauty.

The sun shone
mildly, as it rose, lighting up the vast, never ending sky.

It felt warm,
but ironically, there were grey clouds & drizzle.

This teaches me
a lesson in life.

Just like life,
the grey clouds symbolises obstacles.

After a huge
downpour, similar to us crying, the dark clouds will be gone.

Nothing stays
forever, if you're determined, you will get over it.

In contrast,
the rainbow only appears because of the refraction of light due to presence of
rain.

Why not take a
step back when faced with troubles,

& you'll
find happiness, a colourful solution.

When you
experience the emotional breakdown, look up at the sky.

Remember there
is always a way when you persist,

use your heart
to feel it, & not your mind to think it.

Life would be
of a total difference then :)

The original one I was thinking was different la.
But I couldn't remember it, so I wrote another one, which is this.

Had been thinking a lot lately,
plenty problems to solve and ponder about.
It's time I give myself a break.






I should just blog another day.
Bye.

Lost Everything.

Ever felt like sometimes Fate is playing with you?
Or maybe, when everything seems so wrong, even the sky is raining so heavily for you.

I've lost my chain of thoughts again.



Dreams can be so real sometimes.
And it tells all about what is in your mind half of the time.
I dreamt of many things yesterday, but I wouldn't want to know if it'll come true.

_________________________________________________

喜欢一个人好难，但是喜欢一个人，又不能说出来是难上加难。
有没有好好的等过一个人？
或失去一个爱你的人？

我才发现，好久没有和他，他，他和她，她，她说话了。
好像都不见了什么，不管用竟多少时间和精力，都没用了。

吃醋过吗？看着心爱的人，和别人要好，自己却被愣在一旁，好难受。

觉得自己很白痴过吗？为什么朋友就是比你好，人人都喜欢和她在一起，你就是偏偏要跟着她，为了只是要你喜欢的男生多看你一眼。值得吗？

做人往往都会遇到很多挫折。可是，往另一个角度去想，如果你没有遇到这些挫折，你可能就不会这么成熟了。

___________________________________________________________

珍佩什么都不会, 只会说大话。以上的话，全是废话。
不想去想那么多，想越多，头越大。

好像知道你还好吗，过得如何。
只希望你过得还不错吧。

I've always believed in meeting the correct person at the correct time.
Looks like I've missed another good person.
I hope you get to find another correct person for you, soon.

Congrats to the newly matched couple from my class & the other class.
Though it still looks weird, I hope it is able to pull through.


I'm so gonna be MIA, so do not hope to get any news from me.

My phone is spoilt again, even the person who served me, said I was unlucky.
I guess I was never lucky in my life.
I'm naggy today, thanks to 28days & some spoilt mood.
Sorry to those I showed attitude on, but I doubt I showed any.


Yes, I don't feel like blogging already.
Byebye.

When I think of you,
I feel like
crying..
It wasn't numb afterall.

To be, or not to be.

How I wished we were still so young...


School today wasn't really fun, but well. My class is always adventurous.

Example: Equations done by smart kids in class.


Band, wasn't exactly good, I had moodswings & started scolding. Or rather yelling.
However, I got better later cause my section is really the best ! :DD

I love you guys ; even we may not be together in
future,
I'll still remember you all ! ♥♥♥

Band seriously just make me, devastated & speechless.


Many have been asking me " WHY WANT BE LESBIAN ! "
Or maybe " It's a waste. " , " Can't imagine. "
These are the common questions or answer I got.

What's wrong with becoming les? Is it a crime?
In this society I think we really need to be more open minded.
Are you going to stun your friend after you found out she is a lesbian?
Or if he is a gay?

Someone said today, " One who will turn les is because she gave up on true love. "
Maybe not true love la, just give up hope on guys.
I think that is rather true, isn't it ?

Just tag me if you really thinks les is not a good way out for those out of love, or if you are strongly against the idea of ME becoming lesbian.



I didn't realise I cut my finger while doing don't know what today. lol.
Collected my phone today, met one cute couple which is really interesting.
The person from Sony Ericsson called me yesterday, to inform me I can collect my phone today.

The conversation goes like this:

SE guy : " Hello, 你是黄小姐吗？"

me : " 你是谁？"

SE guy : " 你是chenpei吗？"

me : " 你是谁？"

SE guy : " You speak Chinese or English? "

me : " Both also can, why ? "

SE guy : " I'm calling from Sony Ericsson, just wanna inform you that you can collest your phone tomorrow. "

me : *paiseh* " Oh, okay. "

SE guy : " Yea, " *laughs*

me: " Sorry uh, for being rude just now. I didn't know who you were, haha. "

SE guy : " Why, you thought I gangster ar? "

me : " Maybe? " *Giggles*

SE guy : " Oh... "

me : " Haha, okay. So thank you. "

---- Hung up the phone ----

Funny lo, cause it's from unknown number, & it's a guy.
So I would think that it's my friend calling to di siao (tease) me.
Usually girl ma. Plus he call so late, who would know :/

Ahhhh, got to sleep already. Imran's homework not done,
tomorrow speech day FULL-DRESS rehearsal & also, Rotary club performance at night.
It's gonna be real tiring.

Plus I haven't been feeling well lately, BUT I CANNOT BE SICKKKK !
Can't afford to. Got to sleeeeep.
Will post about DISC profiling the next time ! :DD
Byebyebyebyebye~

你没想像的爱我。

Must-Listen ; Must-Read!

Oh hi !
Let me get the lights on first :/

Okay, back.
It's really dark in here & it's like about to rain.


I think I just heard my neighbour fart very loudly.


Back from school today rather early as the Sec 4s were having listening compre,
Mrs Neo (principal) told us to leave soon asap.
Kinda bored but great, cause that means can get home to sleep.

Obviously I sacrificed my time & sit in front of computer, & blog~
See how much you meant to me dear? :x


Sent my phone to repair yesterday.

The person told me " Hopefully this time after repair it won't happen again. "
OF COURSE LA ! I've sent my phone for a freaking 3 times due to the same problem.
But then I've heard worst one, like maybe 7 times?
I cannot believe it's so lousy.

Walked out of house yesterday & saw the beautiful skies.
It made my day :)
I was like smiling & elated the whole day? :DD


School has been funny, except I was asked to stand up in MT class today cause I talked share too much with Daniel :xx

Life wouldn't be fun if you don't share isn't it ?

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Saw those pictures on top?
I've got many more that I didn't edit.
Too busy (another word for lazy) to use the computer.

& I wonder if my old phone is spoilt too?
Cause I didn't receive any SMS or replies today; till now.
Or maybe people that I text couldn't be bothered to reply :((

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

I really need to get a planner soooooon~
I need to write down when I'm free or not, in case I forgot & tell my friends I'm free.
HAHAHA.


Got to go, I want edit some code, & show you all my videos :s

& oh yea! A 12 year old boy just kinda suggest he can be my bf the other day. ( maybe he's implying that he wants to find gf as old as me )
FGS, 12 YEAR OLD. Kids now are getting really "mature".

Maybe I can consider.....










Becoming a lesbian.

Byebyebye!

恋爱告白天！

It'll better if you read the Chinese words instead cause I wrote it in Chinese & translate it.
& spot the error =/
Then hor, will upload pictures another time, with vids ! ;D

-----------------------------------------------------------------------------

昨天晚上，收到了一个SMS。内容是说今天是恋爱告白日。
(Yesterday night, I received one message, it's about confessing-day.)
不知道是否真，里面大概就是要我们传那个SMS，好让你喜欢的人对你说回他也喜欢你。
(Don't know if it's true, but the main purpose is to forward it, & if you receive one back, it means that the person like you.)


喜欢一个人不防说出来，说不定她也喜欢你呢？:)
(Try confessing to the one you like, who knows if he/she likes you as well?)
我想了想，不知道要写什么，真的要说出来吗？
(After thinking about it, must I really write it?)

这几天都没有和他对话，感觉怪怪的。

不知道是发身了什么事，就没有说话咯。连text都没有。

我会惦记他，但是心想：他也会吗？

可能我的老毛病又来了。好爱想个不停，网网把事情想得太多。

那就这样吧，希望事情会好一点。或者我别想这么多就好了。

昨天好累，不到一下子就睡着了。
(I was so tired yesterday that I fall asleep almost immediately after lying on bed.)
可是，不好的是，我又做了恶梦。梦里的一切多好真，好怕人。
(However, I had a nightmare again. It's so real & scary.)
我也被吓醒了。这时就想到，为何我梦到的不是他？
(I woke up in fear, and then I wonder why it's always me having nightmare?)

可是过后就没事了。也睡得蛮好的。
(It was fine after that, so I slept back.)

今天的我不好，不舒服。
(Wasn't good today, not feeling well.)
肚子好痛，上了好多次厕所，连脚都软了，现在还在痛，好难受。
(I had stomachaches, went to the toilet till my legs almost went jelly, till now it still hurts at times.)

刚想到，前几天我还在埋怨，为什么我要是我，如果我跳楼不就好了。
(Thinking of it, I remembered I was complaining the things around me. Why not just commit suicide by jumping off the building?)
讲真的，如果我跳楼谁会舍不得？我妈不会，朋友也不会，因为我很快就会被忘了。
(Even if I did, who will care? Not my family nor friends. Cause I know I will be forgotten in no time.)


不好不好。明天要去走走，让自己relax一下，静下来。
(NONONO, tomorrow must go walkwalk, relax myself.)
可能我回去AMK hub，自己不管去哪里都好啦！;D
(Maybe I'll go to AMK hub tomorrow, anywhere alone also good!)


不要写了，在此停笔，想不到要说什么，刚才high过头了，现在头痛。
(Stopping here, don't know what to write already.)
你们有空要去走走也是，不是机器，连机器都要休息咯！
(Guys, take a break when you're stress okay? Cause even robots have to rest!)
再见了!
(Byebye!)

可是我喜欢的还是你。

友情不永远是第一

不知道要如何把心里的话说出来，可能一路来都是我想太多，我太嫉妒。

A reply back to you, Jerrold Chan.


Yes, I've hurt you since Sec2. So I'm sorry.
Think about it, why wouldn't I wanna reply you ?
That's because you too don't reply me.
You only thought of me when you have no one to turn to.
I don't blame you for that, cause at least you remember me.

It's not that I hate you guys or what, don't you think it's just way too much ?
Maybe you all don't see it because you weren't in my shoes.
Saying something I don't get it when we're out, walking together & me walking alone.
It's totally not like how it used to be.
Now you've got a new friend, so where do I stand?

Still in your heart perhaps, but definately not the first one you will think of maybe when you wanna watch movie, go out.
Maybe when it's with Kt, then you would think of me.

Something else. Sticking everyday with a girl who is your good friend in class isn't something good.
Have you thought of how the girl you like might feel?
You are with your good friend everyday & that leaves the girl you like seeing everything & feeling jealous.
Who doesn't feel jealous? Even I do.

But now, whatever I say sounds like bullshit.
This friendship we used to have had torn apart.
I still remember how me, you & daniel will always stick together in the past.
That is just memories, I don't think all these will go back again.
Choose the correct path, for I don't think I will help you like how I do in the past.
You're the one who wanna woo her, not me.
It's time you should just take your stand.

If you know that you should 自动when your friend is attached,
then the more you should too in front of the girl you like.
Hiding unseen words it's like useless cause not everyone sees it.

I can tell you everything, if you choose to text me someday.

Have I fallen In Love?

The BIG word : Love.

Came online, but I've got no idea what I wanna do.
It's too early, for friends to be online :/
Was browsing at blogskins, thinking whether to change mine or not.
But, I guess I don't have the mood to.
Thinking of editing pictures. But, All leads to laziness.
I'M A LAZY PIG :(

I should just do more Amaths at night to kill time :z

Tomorrow is Labour Dayy~
But, also, means Friday is Exam Day :(
I should STOP slacking.
Was kinda regret I chose D&T over 3-D Animation.
Aiyah, don't know & don't wish to find out.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Wondered why my first sentence was about Love?
( Gosh, I was distracted by something.. Back to blog ! )

Well, many people are facing r/s problems now?
( Again I'm distracted -.- )
Okay, back to it. This month is April.
Oh, one thing I've found out. Relationships have trends too !
Like, maybe this month is all upsetting news, then next month is alot people getting together & stuff.
This applies to almost ALL of the couples.
YES; IT'S TRUE.

& now it's the bad month.
Quarrels like everywhere. Maybe both are just stressed? It's almost Mid year too.
Whatever it is, just.

Give both of you all time to
consider about it?
If holding on to it leads to
nowhere, maybe you would wanna end it?
Going on doesn't give you
happiness, It only makes one hurt.

For those who are in Love but not together:

I believe you guys can pull it
through together?
Have a break first, study
hard.
It's like honeymoon period, you
guys aren't together yet.
When you're together, you will
know what I meant :)

Why am I even talking about this when I know nothing? -.-
I mean, I am like so single & nobody wants me :s
Even there is, I don't know. Must have FEELINGS.

Oh, another thing, don't just accept someone because that person waits for you for like years?
Or what la. Unless you're certain that you'll slowly develop feelings for him/her :)
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

End Of Tutorial. LOL

Those advices are for those who think you need it.
Cause I find it rather stupid too.

I'M SOOOOO HUNGRY !
WILL SOMEONE COOK FOR ME? ;(

PS; Miss Chua Xinyu, all the best to you & your ahem. For me, I will stay faithful, not to anyone, but MYSELF. thankyou for reminding me . xD

Some on-going.

Just had choir concert yesterday.
It was nice, really.
But I was late & missed the SAC choir :(
Worst is I had to be seperated from friends :((
Anyway there are photos in place for you all !



Click to enlarge ;)


Flower Boy ;D



Actually.. Joel is my boyfriend ! xD


Group photos. Thanks to Jane !

I admit I've a crush on him. Lol !

My dearrie & her pose again -.-

Night view.

Finally a decent one :)



Shuai ge aka fatty & his ? some kind of weird pose.












Candids. I took one :/

Joel, acting as business man.








Unglams & ugly photos.

VCH !

Why blink !


Han & Jerrold

See that cute small guy !

My husband :DDD

Regina Junior !




Combined Choirs



Choir~




That's TWT ! weiting laa.& Some photos which you can find in my photobucket album ^^

Boy's Birthday.

Take me there la ! :x



I scared alot of people.

Shiying



Euphonium section !




I miss concert :(



That's GohJunYi & Jasper cutie at the back =D




Daniel, Jerrold & me.

This guy is <3>

Yes, finish posting pictures. Maybe I should upload some other photos.
Go to my album if you really want to see it alright? :)

Aiya ! while waiting for the pictures to be uploaded,
I came across some quizes to kill time.

Most people can't live without their
cell phone.. so here's a survey about
it.OK Go Grab your phone!

1. What color is your phone?
Blue,Black & Silver ^^

2. Who's the first person who comes up
under the letter M?
Malcolm ;/

3. Who's the last person you called?
Mum.

4. Who was your last missed call from?
Unknown.

5. Who's the 2nd person who
comes up under D?
Daniel.
6. Who's speed dial 2?
Mei Hua :D

7. Who's the 3rd person who
comes up under J?
JASPER !

8. Who was your last received call?
Mum? I think so.
9. Who's speed dial number 4?
William.

10. What is your background?
Sky of loveeeeee ♥ !

11. How many text messages do u have?
Around 100 la. ( I lost all my previous msges lo ! D; )

12. Who's in ur speed dial ?
Meihua, Michelle, William, Jerrold, Daphne :D

13. What's the 5th message say in your
inbox?
" Haha. She not free! Nvm then! Go do ur work k! Haha."

14. Who's the 1st person who comes up
under B?
Balqis ;)
15. Who was your last text message
from?
Jasper !

16. Name every person you have text
messages from:
Jasper, Adeline, Xinyu, Alvin, Glenn, Mingxuan, Michelle, Jasmine, Mum, Ria, Regina, Jerrold, Leonard,Junyi, Senghoe, Siyuan & Yujia. =/

17. Have you seen the 101 Chuck Norris
facts?
No.

18. Who's the 9th person on your missed
calls?
None.
19. What does the 3rd message in
your Outbox say? "Wtf. I wait for you till now you say not meeting. Nevermind la, don't meet don't meet lo. "
20. Who is the first name in your
Phonebook?
Adeline ! :D

Haha, after this pictures are uploaded !

But not all :/

So some more quiz !

ARE YOU:
1. Perfect: Obviously No.
2. Tall: Nono !
3. In your pajamas: Yea .
4. Left handed: Right Handed.

LAST
1. Friend you saw: Yesterday ba, Mingxuan2. Talked to on the phone: Mum
3. Person to text you: Yujia.
4. Was today better than yesterday:
Think so.
FAVORITE:
1. Number: 26.
2. Color: Orange, Grey ;D
3. Food: I'm not choosy ;)4. Place: Home.

QUESTIONS & ANSWERS:
Q: What was the first thing you did
this morning when you got up?
Check where is my phone?
Q: Do you have anything bothering you?
D&T :(

Q: What's the last movie you watched
in theaters?
SKYOFLOVEEEEEE

Q: Where is the last place you went?
Yesterday ba, Simpang Bedok.
Q. Do you smile a lot?
Sureee :)
Q: Do you wish upon stars?
Yea.

Q: Are you a friendly person?
Why not?

Q: Where did you sleep last night?
Home.
Q: Why did you sleep there?
Home ma ! then where?
Q: When was the last time you cried?
Forgot.

Q: What was your last thought before
going to sleep last night?
I'm tired.
Q: Rate life as of right now, one
being bad ten being great?
6

Q: What do you hear right now?
Songgggg.

Q: Does anything hurt right now?
Stomach, I haven't eaten till now !
Q: What's your favorite month?
MARCHHHH~
TEN EMOTIONS:

1. Are you missing someone right now?
Maybe.
8. Are you tired?
Abit.

001. Real name? Ng Chen Pei
002.Birthday? 26March1992
003. Eye color? Brown
004. Zodiac sign? Monkey005. Male or female? Female.
006. Single? Yeaaa.
007. Crushing? Nopes.
009. Smart? Not really.010. Hair color? Brown.
011. Long or short? Short!
013. Sweats or Jeans? No idea.
014. Phone or Camera? Phone.
015. Health freak? Okay lah.
021. Righty or lefty? Rights.

FIRSTS:
024. First best friend? Don't know la.
025. First award? Long ago.
026. First enemy? My brother.
027. First pet? Goldfish O.O
028. First vacation? When I was still young.

CURRENTLY:
049. Eating? Fish&Chips ;D
050. Drinking? milo
052. I'm about to? Eat !
053. Listening to? Tv.
054. Plans for today? Homework. American Idol !
055. Waiting for? This to be done !

WHICH IS BETTER WITH THE OPPOSITE
GENDER:
068. Lips or eyes? Both :x
070. Shorter or taller? Taller; of course.
072. Romantic or spontaneous? Romantic.
074. Sensitive or loud? Abit of both?
075. Hook-up or relationship? RELATIONSHIP.

HAVE YOU EVER:
079. Drank bubbles? Eww ?
080. Lost glasses/contacts? No, I don't have myopia.
081. Ran away from home? Nah,
084. Broken someone's heart? Think so. Yes.
085. Been arrested? No.

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
097. Do you like someone? No.
098. Are you seriously happy with
where you are in life? What more can I ask for?
100. YAY YOU MADE IT (: ; Like FINALLY.

Got more pictures lo:




























Kbox trip.

5 x 5 cube, & he solved it.






My celebration.

Yujia


Wenyong.

End ! Damn. Brother keep on kpkb me.
Irritating, will be back! Seeeeeyouu~