Hey all Hunniessssss :D

Thanks for whatever wishes you guys made and the concern of those who really cared about me.
To the others who simply put on a facade, bug off.
Chenpei's life is so much better without you all.


You may just be another old hag who don't even have someone to love man.
Pathetic little kid... ):

And to that someone who wrote me a letter,
Thanks, but I believe I rather work things out after exams.

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Chenpei is a bad friend.
She always will be one.

So many times things like this happened.
I feel betrayed.
All the times I tried to befriend a girl, but it don't work.
Now I thought you were my best friend, yet you're turned against me.


Tears kept rolling down my hot cheeks;
it felt cold.
Was it because my cheeks were too hot compared to the tears,
or the tears symbolizes your cold-heartedness?

Yes, I am a loser.
I always use you when I don't even fucking know what I did.
I am by nature this way, what else do you want man?

I'm not gaining sympathy here for losing a friend,
I'm heartbroken, because you're like manipulated by someone else.



In this event, I saw who my real friends are.
It's disappointing when your trust is broken by someone.
& this is not the first time it happened.
Yet, it's one of the most painful experience I have.


For those with true friends, you're indeed so lucky.
So do treasure them.

P.S: You should know who I'm talking about. For those who hates me, continue doing so. Cause your unhappiness won't cause me to shorten my life, it'll just make me a stronger person.

Labels: life story, School/Band, To people who bring me Joy

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Less than a month to exams,
I need to complete more papers!

Saving up for prom, hope that cow can really turn up :/
Jiayi too! You must come okay? :(

Working after exams is a must man,
need to earn money! :D


Oh, my friend has a blogshop and I'm going to advertise!
I am going to be her FAT model! :x
Will put up link soon so do support!


Last of all, I'm really goonnnnnna be very busy,
so sorry bloggieeeee~! :(
I love you and you know it righttttttttttttttttttt~

Chaos!

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Is it so hard to be as one?

Everything should be considered as one,
no more for me, or for you only.
Our mindset should also be the same.
Understanding, accepting each other.

But somehow, something will always be in the way.
I've always believed in:
Correct person,
Correct time,
Correct place.


Are we all correct?

You want me to be happy, I want the same for you as well.

Labels: Depression, life story, Love♥, memories, The last post ;(

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rubbing makes wonder.
Now my eye is all swollen ):

Labels: Depression

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Yesyes, Chenpei is back with bangs.
Don't worry, there will be a photo spam later.
SEE ALL YOU WANT.


Side-tracking a little, how's everyone doing!
For me it's definitely better, because D&T is gone!
Not for good, at least a short break :)
And of course I'm heading towards my goal,


Oh, don't ask me why BANGS.
It's just a mistake okay.
Communication error.

So, I hope everyone is doing well.
And, tomorrow is our Beloved Teacher's Day!
I would say today! Sorry.

So here I am, wishing all teachers a

HAPPY TEACHER'S DAY!

Especially those who taught me all these years,
thank you! :D

PHOTO SPAM TIME!

Labels: I'm back`, Love♥, School/Band, thingy, 我的picture

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Less than 5 more hours to my deadline,
Can a miracle happen?

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Since young I guess.
I'm not like a babe, not like a smart girl, not even a sociable person.

Whenever I meet some one unfamiliar, I'll just try to avoid as much as possible.
I hate meeting new people, not unless it's someone I'm comfortable with.
& now, after I know I'm not always the best, not at least any good, I've lost it all.

My O levels mother tongue, just as expected, I got a B3.
I am not sad, I'm just kinda dishearten.
My Oral, being one of my strongest point, actually became my weakest factor.
I merely passed it.

Maybe like I've said before, it's my luck.
I got a tough conversation topic, and I'm not doing well.
Am I putting in enough effort?
I guess not at all.


My English oral is coming, will I do well enough?


Leaving this aside, not only studies makes me lose my confidence, even friends does.
I've realised, sometimes when you try so hard to be someone you're not, everything will just hit you back twice as much.
I should just stick to my old friends, or just being alone. Right?

But I know there are definitely some friends I can rely on.
They are the one who don't leave me, who don't speak back behind my backs.
At least, they are those who label me as their "Friend".

Going out as a group would have many joy & laughter,
but how many are actually involved?
That's why, I prefer to go out in small group.
Everything will just be shared among us.
Wouldn't that be better?


But afterall, I'm glad.
Putting all these problems aside, I still have my family.
My nanny's family as well.
They are ultimately my happiness.
If one day, even they choose to quarrel with me, I guess it'll just be another breakdown for me.


My food poisoning is almost over, just that my appetite still haven't really much recovered.
I know my emotions lately had been bad, sorry for those who put up with me.
Stomach cramp and headache just drives me mad.


Last quote for the day:

Always think of those who are in worst state when you want to complain.

Labels: life story, Read it if you are really interested

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