歌曲：我怀念的 by 孙燕姿

我问为什么 ; 那女孩传简讯给我
而你为什么 ; 不解释低着头沉默
我该相信你很爱我 ; 不愿意敷衍我
还是明白你已不想挽回什么
想问为什么 ; 我不再是你的快乐
可是为什么 ; 却苦笑说我都懂了
自尊常常将人拖着 ; 把爱都走曲折
假装了解是怕真相太赤裸裸 ; 狼狈比失去难受
我怀念的 ; 是无话不说
我怀念的 ; 是一起作梦
我怀念的 ; 是争吵以后还是想要爱你的冲动
我记得那年生日 ; 也记得那一首歌
记得那片星空 ; 最紧的右手 ; 最暖的胸口
谁记得 ; 谁忘了
想问为什么 ; 我不再是你的快乐
可是为什么 ; 却苦笑说我都懂了
自尊常常将人拖着 ; 把爱都走曲折
假装了解是怕真相太赤裸裸 ; 狼狈比失去难受
我怀念的 ; 是无话不说
我怀念的 ; 是一起作梦
我怀念的 ; 是争吵以后还是想要爱你的冲动
我记得那年生日 ; 也记得那一首歌
记得那片星空 ; 最紧的右手 ; 最暖的胸口
谁忘了
我怀念的 ; 是无言感动
我怀念的 ; 是绝对炽热
我怀念的 ; 是你很激动求我原谅抱得我都痛
我记得你在背后 ; 也记得我颤抖着
记得感觉汹涌 ; 最美的烟火 ; 最长的相拥
谁爱得太自由
谁过头太远了
谁要走我的心
谁忘了那就是承诺
谁自顾自地走
谁忘了看着我
谁让爱变沉重
谁忘了要给你温柔~ ah~~
我怀念的..
我还有想要爱你的冲动
我记得那年生日 ; 也记得那一首歌
记得那片星空 ; 最紧的右手 ; 最暖的胸口
我放手 , 我让座 , 假洒脱
谁懂我多么不舍得
太爱了 , 所以我 , 没有哭 ,
没有说



it didn't come to my mind why i wanted to blog this.
maybe i was too random, or i just wanna spend time.
or, i was hoping that he will come across this some day.
i guess it was none of the above.
& for those that accidently came across things that is not supposed to be seen
on the previous post, i am sorry.
i , like to do all sorts of things.
if by chance you saw it, i hope it doesnt really make you go
" WAH, sucha bitch or blahblah . "


i miss the way you talk ;
i miss the way you looked ;
i miss the way you act cute ;
i miss the way we held hands ;
i miss the way you hugged me ;
i miss the way you did lil things ;
i miss the way you cared for me ;
i miss the way we spent time tgt ;
i miss the way you fetch me to sch ;
i miss the way you touched my hair ;
i miss the way you SMS me everyday ;
i miss the way you edit pictures for me ;
i miss the way you tried to make me laugh ;
i miss the way you draw things on my hand ;
i miss the way you came & meet me after sch ;
i miss the way we stared blankly at each other ;
i miss the way you asked me if you can woo me ;
i miss the way how you looked when we first met ;
i miss the way we went to meet our precious nuer ;
i miss the way where you will try hard to ask me eat ;
i miss the way where we will sit down and hardly talk ;
i miss the way you lend me your jacket despite your flu ;

& last of all , i miss the way you said you love me .

i was thinking too much.

i wasn't a good girlfriend to you compared to her.

but i am sure we are different in a way.

sometimes i really do regret making stupid decisions when i'm angry.

i'm sure you know i was angry that time.

but can't we even talk like friends now?

i feel lost, very lost.

without you to at least cheer me up, i hope for nothing everyday.

& i swear, i didn't love you for just that moment

i didn't ' anyhow ' accept you.

i was sure of my feelings ; and so much so that i still miss you.

sorry isn't just the cure.

& it ended ; 11:51pm`

blogging time.

& AGAIN. I FORGOT WHAT I WANTED TO SAY.

ROARR~

anyways, these few days. got alot couples quarrelled, break-ups, all these.
hope my turn won't arrive. =x !
& i don't even have boyfriend! crapping~ ;)
all guys, listen up okay?
it is definately NOT WORTH for you to be so crazy over girls at this age.
you might think it's because you LOVE her, or she LOVE you.
LOVE again is a very BIG four-letter word.
i can't even explain it.
since you know it's gonna be over; be prepared for the worst. yar?

i really don't know what to tell you all,
my headache is killing me.

yes, i agree i only know how to say,
but what more do you want?
i am just some lonely girl without boyfriend.
perhaps boyfriend is just someone who pampers you,
or. i don't know. up to you.

bu ting CHENPEI yan, chi kui zai yan qian. =/

it's you guys de mind. i won't say anymore.

anyways, i have done so many good deeds these few days laaa.
but end up.
MY 5$ NOTE WENT MISSING.
"5$ nia ! i can also give you~ " that's what most peep will say.
but. i treasure my things. PLUS. it was a plastic note. )':
okay, i am childish. also can.
just wanna say sorry to all those friends that i complained to bout it.

in case you are viewing this blog,
PLEASE, THE FOLLOWING SENTENCE IS NOT AN INSULT.

did i mention that she looked like the zheng ning from RGS? =x
& did i ever mention i hated her like maddd?
sorry. i didn't mean i hate her, but i just don't like zhengning.
every action just resembles her.
& even looks. long lost sister? =s

enough of that.
i don't want to be blame for that.
i am just voicing something that i really see it.
sorrrrry if i did say something to make you unhappy.
i am not in a good mood neither, perhaps i am too stress.
so i better be going. nights.

all i wanted was one guy;

sweetsweet one.

i found it, but also lost it.

i considered that sweet as the

one & only sweet i found.

i am sorry if i was selfish.

everything ended.

i've no rights to complain.

i could only blame myself for hurting you.

& it ended ; 12:21am`

well, i wanted to blog.
instead, i was attracted to viewing peoples' blog. =.=
i browse through some blogs & was fascinated by it.
while others were heart breaking. =x
now my turn.

i just wanna say.
er.

i dreamt of him last night.
i went to his house.
played with him.
told him a secret.
but it was a joke.

perhaps because i thought of him before i sleep?
while i was on my bed?

i remembered i whispered to him.
" if you call me be your girlfriend laaa.. "
he was shocked, & i said i was joking only.

what a joke. if i can really tell him that now,
i will.

things will never go back to what it begun with.

gottogo.RUNS*



& it ended ; o8:26pm`

i think i will upload pic next day, =/
argh, i really REALLY wanna blog alot of things.

BUT.

i am currently moodless, NOT active & i wanna sleep. =(
i shall blog what i remember. =s


i want play. PLAY WHAT?
i don't know. play with people's feeling. LOL.
toys? MAYBE.
character? HA-HA . x_x


awws, DON'T KNOW !

oh, & i cut my hair. okay, for you guys that support me by reading my blog,
i post for you ! =D





something like this?

well. is like, so LIAN~
WHATEVER! gtg.

& BEFORE I GO ;

CAMPUS SUPERSTAR REALLY MAKE ME GO EEEWWWWWWW~

SO BEFORE I GO @&*^%*&@#!* ,

PEOPLE, SWITCH OFF MY TV. =/

i think i really got affected by them laa. CMI. the spoil all my fav songs ! :'(

wan an peeps. x)

& it ended ; 11:34pm`

till now, i am what i am. maybe i am no longer the sweet, hyper, innocent you once knew, but , i only hope that, the change in me won't cause people who are dear to me to leave me. human DO change, so just admit to it. (:

& thicker, more messy.

& my hair growing longer everytime,

i cut hair. better, no need tie all these. safe trouble. =D

i went to pierce tongue. =s

curl like straightening, at the same time.

like that ;

then like that ,

the fringe abit too long. =/

because my hair was wayyyyy too thick ; i went to cut.

so i permed after that.

then i change hairstyle, actually before i rebonded i wanted curly hair, but my mum didnt allow.

i was only 14 then.

i became more "lian" . =/ piercepierce.

i grew to wear clothes that werent my age.

but as i grow older, i know that people that are childish are irritating.

can recognise is me? last time i damn zzZ de. childish.

& it ended ; o1:32am`

most pictures look weirddddd. i must admit. =x cause my hair damn messsssy. =z

that whole day i got nothing to do, picture lo ! =x

saturday !~
weird that i can use comp? =/
my brother's outside. i must hurry before he comes home.

i just came back from chalet, ALOY de laa. =D
it's his birthday today, so HAPPY BIRTHDAY BOY !
i had fun yesterday laa ! despite all the mosquito bites =.=
& the whole thing goes like this: ( can skip all the part until the dawn part )

because i had to wait for my brother come back,
i was late, so me & michelle metup, at 2o1, cabbed there.
the taxi driver make me damn pissed laaa, freak.

arrive at chalet.
yihui & aloy came out to fetch us. =x
there was only like, 1o+ ppl?
SO LITTLE ! cause i tot there would be more.
then i found out later some did not turned up because, superstar is coming on sat, which is, today.
can guess who? ahxing, yangyang they all luh~
so me&mich sat down, and started joking. =D

awhile later, mouse tried to walk pass us, and was surprised that it was us ! T.T
so much for being BLIND. started crapping. this comes the funny part.
*yihui joins us, walks away. aloy talktalk, walks away, sebas joins us awhile, walks away*
LOL! is like they are taking turns to entertain us.

after mich, yihui & sebas left, i only had mouse to talk to ! =(
me, da wei, mouse went up to play MONOPOLY ! :D
badddd luck la ! )):
"12am coming ! must go down cut cake !.."
went down, sat there, went up again. -_-

the night was like. fun lo.
i chatted on phone with siyuan all along. till i was tired ler.
so i told aloy to tell him i sleep ler =x
aloy was making all sorts of funny acts laaa. i wanted to sleep !
but i failed to do so. =[
he was like. " mama, mama..." o.o
i was the only girl left there laa. i used to it ler, cause they always treat me like boy. x)
then yihui came ! "#$%^&%$8 GO SEE AH GUA LAA!"
lol. everyone left, leaving me, aloy & some pigs in the house.
finally room was available, went in to sleep.
i was so dead hungry, aloy lend me his tomyam instant noodles to eat. he cooked somemore! ^^
after eating, went in to room. because it was toooo cold for me, aloy gave out his cardi !
i say beside aloy, as i cant sleep beside him , =/
listen to songs, dawei want sleep, aloy singsing so loud , cannot laa.
i think mouse the worst de. aloy keep suaning him. sad laa .

man, yihui came back and like. shouted again.
everyone went to play monopoly, while some guys sleep like fire also wont wake up de.
because i was boredddd being the banker, i went in to the room.
=s woke aloy up. he damn sensitive de laa.
it was dawn ler.
i stand at the window enjoyed view then he asked me to sit beside him, cause if not i must stand all the while.
he was like, acting baby laa. call me MAMA again, ask me hug him , tell me coldcold.
*shivers* damn gay, =x

i sat on floor, lay my head on the bed, want to rest, he keep pulling my hand.
this happened like, everytime i got in, so i didn't sleep.
but i will never forget, what else you did. (:

i was really tired. i went in & stop being the banker, sat by aloy's bed, sleep.
but i never really sleep like for long ? cause i scared aloy wake up, all these.
yihi came in and was like, " wah, you so ke lian, must sit on the floor, and rest. got fulfill your duty as gf ar. "
LOL. aloy also not my bf. =s

& the damn monopoly lasted for 3+ hrs. x_x
CRAZY PEEPS.

&yihui won !
& all i can say was:
it is like a dream, that happen when i was sleeping,
the dream was enjoyable, fun, sweet.
but it all ended, when i woke up early in the morning.
& it will only be kept inside me.

& i hope it was more than a dream,



& it ended ; o7:oopm`

sunday ! =D
i feel so happy. dunno why leh. =/
nothing much today laa.
stayed at home. do nothing.
& yar ! xinyu damn cute. she say she want daddy,
then i say you intro me lo.
she really go ask ! zz ! SHY*
but dunno laa. the guy wanted short relationship.
well, i don't think i will want it long either.
but after nov confirm will :D
gan qing maa. bu neng force de.
anyways, all the best to all the couples i know !
better not say it out ; later ppl say i kpo. =x

want go ler ! it's raining now, damn cold !
cover your blanket peeps ! NITES !



& it ended - 11:16`

FREAK. i got to repost AGAIN.

let's cut short; TODAY:
- chiong homework.
- had fun in class.
- sectionals.
- honeymoon with joel ;x
- talk to jin en.
- went 2o9 play bball.
- saw alot people. ( miss them loads )
- tired. zz

& now i am red . =/


应该放手了就该放,
勉强挽留是没有结果的.
所以我选择了放弃 ((:


& now i am freeeee~
let's just hope nov come quickly. =/

& i miss my song downloader ))):





& it ended - o3:17am`

all i can say ; jealousy.

wah~ has been a longggg time since i last posted.
bo bian, was busy with school thingy. =D
let's have a brief summary ;

monday:
- school reopen,
- new teachers , new canteen.
- new sitting plan , new tables ! ( as in it's cleaned laa )
- attire check
- no assembly ! xDDD

monday was basically SHORT.


tuesday:
- no band ! :(( it was changed to thurs & sat as choir had its pract on tues.
- i was restless ~
- getting on & studying ler.
- i remembered i went out with william & joel .
- i was so tired laaa ! that stupid william & his ideas =p
- he treated me & joel bbt, then went to bishan !
- before that we took bus to white sands just to PEE =.=
- at inter saw ade ! took bus home.
- so late & tired that i slept at my nanny's house (sitting position) for 2+ hour.

tuesday was fun though~ ^^

wednesday:
- DAMN ! i had P.E but stupid ryan cheng did not msged me !
- i was scolded @!%@$!^#
- i wasn't feeling well either laaa.
- crapped in class about how our teachers look.
- miss tong is CHIO LAAAA !~
- i think i went out after school also. =s

aiya, i can't remember so much...

thursday:
- got band pract !
- it started like so LATE can?!
- william laa! ask him don't wait for me. bo liao lo.
- msged fook soon to ask him tell william to go back first.
- didnt realised he didnt have my number,
- & was happy after he got it. zzz
- oh ! and i got closer to my juniors ! ^^

maybe unhappy things happened in class..

friday:
- end of week! flooded with homework.
- math piercing tongue after school !
- recess in class ; fook soon replied to ask who am i . =/
- waited 3 hours for math just to exchange for 3 seconds. ROARR~
- after math left , me, william & joel went to marina square !
- long time never go ler, went to eat at yoshi ~
- william emo, i rushing back so left after awhile.

& i finally got the chance to play with baby ! :D


weekends arrived...
saturday:
- went out with meihua last minute to novena.
- didnt turn up for cross-country.
- i really wanted to go but my headache is killing me ! *CRIES
- met up so lateeeeeee ! ( i promised i will be early fron now on =x )
- was msging william all along, asked him if we wanna meet.
- went to find him & met up with jerr at *scape park.
- before performance ended, william and i left to cine to get drink.
- almost LOST . =xx
- jerrold and kok was really lost, they didnt know where were they. zzZ
- found their way back, kok was hungry and went to eat ! ( he ate only laa )
- end of story? NO WAY!
- william and i decided to slack so went to 2o9.
- chatted all the way till 1+ ? =s
- send me home and he went back. ( sorry leh~ )

people was like staring at me laa ! sianed -

& finally, sunday:
- i decided to rest at home.
- headache wasnt better laaaaa.
- slept till 4+ pm. ( YES, PIG I KNOW )
- alot missed calls & msges. =[
- engsing wanted to meet, i was too lazy. & tired.
- ate dinner, phone rang . it was jasper cutie !
- turns out to be joel . T_T
- they want me watch movie ! TRANSFORMER.
- got shuaige cheepeng, jasper, joel, han, bi, ming xuan erzi & li an.
- place? VIVO LA ! and it's like, the movie is starting at 6:45 then they called me at 5:35
- for a girl, i SURE LATE.
- somemore. like. only around one hour , cannot laa !
- but i still went. =x bu qu bai bu qu.
- they treated like everything? movie & cab.
- still did not managed to be early, was late for show by 1o-12 mins?
- show's nice ! only when it is in vivo ! xP
- took BUS back, saw jun chuan, he was sitting behind us. =S
- met william after all left and went for prata ! @ 8oo+ .
- too late ler after we finished so walked home ! x)
- it wasnt far laaa. but sorry again william that you have to walk back alone! x[

end of one WHOLE week. =)

yea, alot of things did happen.
jokes, emo, craps and stuffs.
i admit i was restless and short tempered that few days,
but i wasnt angry. sad? i think got laa. don't know.
i broke the spell long ago, but i still can't get you out of my mind at night.
what over IS over. and that's definately true.
i will just have to wait for another chance,
this time, i am not gonna let you go~ :P
let's just wish you & her good luck.
& maybe you didn't know that it was you whom i am talking about.




if i said ilu to you, will you say that back too?



& it ended - o8:2oam`