Sick

Had been really sick these days.

I bet many people are like me, sick as well.

Guess its all because of weather change. Damn it. It sucks to be this sick :(

Right now I'm not totally well, but still I'm fine, half dying maybe.

I'm so scared I will get my colleagues sick also :/

Okay, let's start proper blogging.

What went wrong recently?

Why is everyone in rs problem? (Apart from me maybe)

Couples who are together long enough are breaking up.

Everyone is just so troubled over love.

Though I'm not a love expert, and I always use my own way to solve the problems,

I actually think that giving each other some time apart will be best.

BUT THAT IS ONLY GOOD IF YOUR BF/GF WILL STAY BY YOUR SIDE AT THE END OF THE DAY LA!

Don't come bloody say separate for awhile then end up he/she goes to another girl/guy.

Like that it is damn dumb lor.

But also, you have to think after all is this guy suitable for you?

I know you might have given him all, but has he?

Or, is it even possible to live without quarreling a day?

Ask yourself questions, cause at the end its you who matters, not him?!

To some, here is my advice:

If your bf fucking thinks he is handsome/attractive/cute, fuck him hard.

He don't deserve all your love, he will just end up flirting with another girl.

If your bf is younger than you, try harder. Younger guys only wanna play, get attention and is easily jealous. For what put yourself in these situation?

If your bf is older A LOT, then you don't have to try at all. Older guys don't hardly care about anything so all you can do is make sure you don't get yourself hurt when you realise he wanna go out with another girl etc.

Okay, i'm done.

Because I'm sick and I had enough nonsense from someone today. TWEET!

PS: If you are a man, bring your guts out. Man wouldn't lecture someone (esp a girl) so hard on FB.

Meaningless.

What makes a good relationship?

Being able to compromise, gain trust by one another and never do things behind your partner's back.

So what if all these are not present in a relationship?

No one is perfect, that is why we accept flaws and try to change it.

You are really lucky, if one day you meet a guy, who totally has what you like.

But wait, can he accept the way you are?

I know I am not perfect, neither are you.

Therefore we must learn to give in, and give way to one another.

In my relationship, its not all about me.

I will give in, if it is right. But seeing that you no longer want to give in, whatever I do won't change any fact.

If you don't wish to give in, compromising won't happen.

All you will get is quarrels everyday.

About trust issue, cmon guys. If your girl is talking to someone else out there, so what?

We need a life too, we need friends.

IF YOU CAN'T BE THERE WHEN WE NEED YOU, ITS OUR FRIENDS WHO CAN BE THERE.

But to the girl, get a life also.

If your guy can throw away all his friends for you, please don't be demanding and go overboard.

He can do it, so can you.

That applies if only his world is all about you.

Whatever, trust is important.

Without trust, the relationship is broken.

No understanding also.

Last of all, doing things behind your back.

If you want to meet a girl/guy, tell your partner.

Why lie? Things will turn nasty if he/she realised you are lying.

Isn't it?

Be frank, if he/she trust you, he/she will understand.

If they can't, fuck them. You should not even be together with him/her.

Saying so much, what about to myself?

I need a place to hide.

After so long, all the ups and downs, we still don't understand what we need.

Couples are least prone to quarreling after being together for longer time right?

Yet it was reversed for me. I don't know what is wrong with us.

I really don't.

Is it because we're way too different in our mindset?

Or it is because of our age difference? Generation gap?

I feel helpless and worthless when he scolded me yesterday.

I know I'm being kpo, trying to help when I know nothing, but I wanna help, because I know he won't to a thing to it (how I understand him).

But in ended up that he got mad and yea, major quarrels.

Yes, I'm a fucked up person cause I hate it when you treat like nothing happened in the morning the next day.

That is me, what more you want?

I'm not like you, wake up then go "Hi baby, I'm up."

Then what?

What else can I say? "Okay."

But I tried to give in. I tried to reply in nice tone, even send you a picture and you said its ugly.

Come on, I tried my best.

But nothing to you is nice, nothing is pretty.

I think I'm even worst.

Is this going to end up even worst in the near future?

Cause if so I would just end it here. It saves me from heartpains.

You have changed, from when I met you.

I have too. After being together I demand more and you start to see me as a loathe.

I agree. Sometimes I cannot stand myself, why the fuck am I so kpo, nosey.

Always poking into your stuffs and others stuff.

Maybe I cared in the wrong way.

But I cannot stand it when I get blamed.

Just like your friend case.

Being nice but ended up not nice.

Okay, maybe your friend is right.

We should end this, what he said really affected me great time.

Till now. I swear I cannot get over it.

I always thought as long as we like/love one another, we are willing to compromise, all can be done.

But look, don't seems like that for me. Or us.

We can't even understand and give in at the same time.

What else can I do to make you happy?

Telling me to stop bothering your stuffs? I can't.

Unless you're not my friend anymore. If not I really cannot don't do it.

I think I'm just a screwed up for life.

Bye.

Loving you was the most happy part of my life, and losing you was never an option I would choose to take.

Live,

Since its cell biology now and I got no idea of what is it about, I decided to blog!



I was reading some blogs and were kinda tempted to blog.

Things weren't the best for my weekends.
I almost did something that I would regret for the rest of my life.
But I was glad, he stopped me.
He told me he wanna continue, though he didn't sweet talk, I know he was sincere.
And seeing him like that makes me weak, I wasn't firm on any decision anymore.

How much in life have you experience fear?

The fear of losing someone;
The fear of getting caught (when you did something wrong) ;
The fear of losing your way;
The fear of taking your results when you didn't study for an exams;
& the fear of being lonely.


Of course there are more fears in life.
But which one made you shiver in come kind of coldness?
Which left you heart-broken or sad?
Or even, which makes you feel like fainting?


If you had before any of these, you really experienced something huge.
At least it shows that you cared about the thing you were doing, that leads to the fear you feel.
If you feel so strongly about something, I think its dumb if you just let it go.

I know I am KPO, but I don't like to see friends who fall out of love when I know they cared for each other.
What's worst is when both don't speak up, don't give in.
Communication & Trust is most important in a Relationship.
So no matter what you did, how you feel you should always talk about it to your other half.
You don't want to let it be a gap between you two right?



That is why I will try my best to help my friends :)




Well, maybe we are all too young to talk about love.
But at least, if we only had a life to live, live without regrets!
So experience life, not learn how to live.


I think all very bullshit, but I hope it helps!



PS: I know what the lecturer is talking about despite the fact that I didn't listen!

Back again.

Because I am uploading pictures to Fb & I got nothing to do, I decided to blog!

About what? I also don't know! HAHAHHAA.

Well, I remembered during countdown, many ladies died on their heels.
It's true that girls like to be pretty no matter what. EVEN HURTING THEIR FEET.
I think it's okay if you know the limits isn't it?
I don't think I would want scars on my legs just because of a day being pretty or what.

Okay, my baby is like working.
And I am supposed to be asleep.
Maybe I will work on my album tomorrow.
So tedious to actually post all photos taken in a year selectively into an album.

AHHHHHHHHH, Jasmine's birthday coming.
And Hk trip is nearer! Got to saveeeeee!


That is all! Will be back for more!
Click onto Fb for more photos update! :D

F-A-C-I-A-L

Hello readers! I'm so sorry I've abandoned you guys for a long time!

So now I'm back with more to write! :D
Let's start!

Seeing my Title of post will definitely make you wonder why "facial" right?
Cause I went for my first facial today!!
And I totally looked like Clown now.
But I think the pain is, bearable? :/

Oh, and in between, there were so much convo that made me laugh man!
Like,

How you girls wondered hoe fortunate we are now?
Last time when females have period, it's like, they use those weird papers or even cloth leh!
Imagine that. You still have to wash it lor!

Also, things like Money is more worthy than Men.
My aunt still thinks she chose wrong husband.

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Before that, went school for D&T and later went to eat with Jiayi & Bi !
Damn jokes sia! With them it's always funnnn :D
What Mickey is pervert. Anyhow hor!

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Recently I've made many friends.
This includes people I might have known long ago & some really new friends.
These includes my new best friend CHOO JIA YI, Samuel Lam, Wee Cheng, Denz, Kenneth & more!





Well, these are nice people that accompany my everyday!
Without them I'll be so rotting man.
So Thanks to you all! All are loved by me!!!


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Night study is getting fun! With Desmond (not emrys) sitting beside me!
Though Jiayi thinks that they are noisy, :/
& I love my hot pink nails !

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I can't stop missing him.
Stupid brains.
Study Peggy.

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Oh, the YumYum column will be empty for the moment because Peggy is currently having "no appetite-moon".
She also lost some weight due to eating one meal a day.
But she will be gaining it back slowly cause she'e eating one & a half per day now :D
So people eat correctly!
Skinny is NOT Beauty!!
MUST HAVE BREAKFAST!

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Peggy is not into Make-ups anymore! ( Not so much la)
She's more into Skin care products!! :D
Don't think that I have perfect skin;
I don't!
So I've learned to take care of my skin,
GIRLS! Do remember your sun-block! Really, not kidding man!
Also remove make-ups FULLY before you sleep!

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The other day accompanied Jia Yi to remove her stitches.
OMG, when I hear her scream & crying I was petrified!
It's totally heart-breaking cannn!! I was thinking how to calm her man.
But I also learnt that, next time must be focus while doing D&T!

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Sorry to those who has been asking me out.
I'm really busy, but I'll make time for you all okay?!
I promise :)

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Last of all,

The Jiejie say I look like mixed blood while doing facial today!
Funny!

& I'm like so interested to be a model man!
How! :(



Byebye!

BTW. More photos are available on my Facebook! :D

Talent, Occupation.

Well, as much as exams are over,

what students dread most is here!

RESULTS !

Tell me who loves results more than exams?

Sure you do, when you really think you can make it.

But for this MidYear, I think most of us are just demoralized.

That includes me for sure.

I already had the feeling that I wasn't prepared for Os just after the second day of exams?

It's nuts, but seriously,

WHY THE HELL WOULD SCHOOLS GIVE PAPERS WHICH ONLY DEMORALIZES US?

I don't get that.

Yes, to push us, get better results, what-so-ever.

But hey, when we don't do well for this papers, you all say we don't study hard.

Just like what Adam Khoo workshop taught us,

"Do you even think all the Triangles we learn in Maths we be
applicable in future?"

Don't tell me you would want to calculate the possibility of you getting a job in the future.

I know, we are students.

We must study. But can't schools encourage us in another way?

Now I'm so stressed I really wished that I wasn't born.

Or at least could just go out to work.

Maybe I can push my luck.

Since I love to sing, why not go for audition?

Like Singapore Idol, whatever.

That's my forte.

I can be blogger too! :D

( Chenpei really wish to continue ranting... )

But whatever it is, I just have to do my best.

For that, only I know if I'm really pushing my potentials.

So people, whatever you do, always give it your best.

Even you may not be the Best,

But you're the Best yourself & you know it.

I just have to try harder next time.

This time is really horrendous.

Anyway, dark horse won AI !

Like even I'm amazed.

KRIS ALLEN LEHHHHHHH!

As humble as he is, I still remember he said:

" I may not be vocally good/better than the rest, but I'll always do my
best"

(something like that)

Yes! And because he constantly work hard, it paid off!

With much determination I'm sure we all can too!

Yea, the champion song was awesome too :D

(though I am still disappointed that Danny was out, but Kris is handsome too! :x )

Alright, that's all I think.

Dumpling Festival is coming, I want to "wrap dumpling" if I'm free! :DDD

BIASEDNESS.

Everything happens for a reason.
Why you are born,
Why opposite sex attracts,
Why you are what you are,
Why birds can fly, fishes can swim,
& also Why people detest one another.

But all these comes down to reality.
Since when do you ever think that life was is fair?

Why do parents compare?
Why will they always nag at you, without fail, when you got bad grades, and go like:
" Why other people can be so smart you cannot? "
If that is the case, many children will just wonder/reply:
" Then you go take the boy boy/girl girl as your child la! "

So will even think:
" You own self also don't know how to study, say so much for what. "

All these are reality.
When people do well, others will get jealous.
And they will complain about it.
But have you ever thought of doing equally well compared to those who are always the Best?

My mother was is never satisfied with my grades.
Even when I can get the highest in class for just once, she claims that she can do better.
I am not proud of it. It's just a common test plus it's just Mother Tongue.
Who cares about it?
Right till now I can still say maybe she really don't care.
But from another point of view, she's just pushing me to make me better.
Everyone got their methods, right?


But I just don't get it. Why do people have to be bias?
Just because you are smarter, does it mean that I am dumber?
I believed everyone is good in something.
Like even if lions are the best predator, there is sure preys which can outrun them.
Like the best band, if you were to pick one player out, can the player play a beautiful piece?
Like the blind people (no offense), they have better sense in other area.

So what if I am from Normal Academy?
Does it mean that I am inferior compared to the Express students?
I can say I can sing, but who can't sing?
It's just whether you can sing melodiously or not.
So I can study too, just that I am not intelligently better than the better student.

And the thing about respect. Tell me how to respect someone when he/she does not even respect me first.
HELLO!~ Seniors so what?
Big is it? Tell me where big?
Use your brain darling.
If you got high IQ, I bet your EQ is half as much as your IQ.
Or even lesser.

Alright. Stop complaining about life already.
Let the pictures do the talking.

A character from To kill a mocking bird.

Hockey, Pinky ?

The rest are all me.

Because Daphne wasn't in the best mood to take pictures, she left me taking it alone ):
And last of all,

The above post was not about me.
I am Sec 4 already, in 4E(Express) and the oldest cause I am Seventeen.
It's just about my views to certain unhappiness in school.
Especially when it comes to discrimination against NA or NT.
Thank you.

Here We Are, Closer Again.

Today is 20.08.2008 . Have you guys noticed it?
I bet many of you didn't know it was a double date.
Just like me, I walked out this morning, & saw a rainbow.

Immediately, it lights up my mood.
& I thought of this:

I see a
rainbow, across the big blue sky.

It lights up my
dull mood, with a happy smile.

The rainbow is
colourful, but the rain is falling as well.

The droplets of
rain fell on my head;

Everyone is
avoiding the rain - is it really that scary?

As I walked
further down the road,

the rainbow
"hid" away from me.

It disappeared.
The clouds are like its accomplice,

covering it
from my sight.

The clouds were
grey.

However, on the
other side of my vision, the sky was of a majestic beauty.

The sun shone
mildly, as it rose, lighting up the vast, never ending sky.

It felt warm,
but ironically, there were grey clouds & drizzle.

This teaches me
a lesson in life.

Just like life,
the grey clouds symbolises obstacles.

After a huge
downpour, similar to us crying, the dark clouds will be gone.

Nothing stays
forever, if you're determined, you will get over it.

In contrast,
the rainbow only appears because of the refraction of light due to presence of
rain.

Why not take a
step back when faced with troubles,

& you'll
find happiness, a colourful solution.

When you
experience the emotional breakdown, look up at the sky.

Remember there
is always a way when you persist,

use your heart
to feel it, & not your mind to think it.

Life would be
of a total difference then :)

The original one I was thinking was different la.
But I couldn't remember it, so I wrote another one, which is this.

Had been thinking a lot lately,
plenty problems to solve and ponder about.
It's time I give myself a break.






I should just blog another day.
Bye.

Lost Everything.

Ever felt like sometimes Fate is playing with you?
Or maybe, when everything seems so wrong, even the sky is raining so heavily for you.

I've lost my chain of thoughts again.



Dreams can be so real sometimes.
And it tells all about what is in your mind half of the time.
I dreamt of many things yesterday, but I wouldn't want to know if it'll come true.

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喜欢一个人好难，但是喜欢一个人，又不能说出来是难上加难。
有没有好好的等过一个人？
或失去一个爱你的人？

我才发现，好久没有和他，他，他和她，她，她说话了。
好像都不见了什么，不管用竟多少时间和精力，都没用了。

吃醋过吗？看着心爱的人，和别人要好，自己却被愣在一旁，好难受。

觉得自己很白痴过吗？为什么朋友就是比你好，人人都喜欢和她在一起，你就是偏偏要跟着她，为了只是要你喜欢的男生多看你一眼。值得吗？

做人往往都会遇到很多挫折。可是，往另一个角度去想，如果你没有遇到这些挫折，你可能就不会这么成熟了。

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珍佩什么都不会, 只会说大话。以上的话，全是废话。
不想去想那么多，想越多，头越大。

好像知道你还好吗，过得如何。
只希望你过得还不错吧。

I've always believed in meeting the correct person at the correct time.
Looks like I've missed another good person.
I hope you get to find another correct person for you, soon.

Congrats to the newly matched couple from my class & the other class.
Though it still looks weird, I hope it is able to pull through.


I'm so gonna be MIA, so do not hope to get any news from me.

My phone is spoilt again, even the person who served me, said I was unlucky.
I guess I was never lucky in my life.
I'm naggy today, thanks to 28days & some spoilt mood.
Sorry to those I showed attitude on, but I doubt I showed any.


Yes, I don't feel like blogging already.
Byebye.

When I think of you,
I feel like
crying..
It wasn't numb afterall.

Happy Birthday Daddy.

It's 17 July today, so it's my Daddy's birthday.
He should be 49 this year though.

Somehow I went emo last night while watching Channel U's 10pm drama.
It was about Daddies.
Seesee le then I cry. =/

I sang a birthday song a minute ago, in front of the computer.
I guess that is all I can do :)


I was super loner today in class, and after school.
I'm now arranged to sit way behind, alone.
But I like that seat cause I think it's really nice.
I finished my work in class because there were no distractions beside me.
Oh yeh ! I was one of the Top 5 speakers in class.
Some debating activity.

After school, I head to the canteen and somehow, I went to the very end of the canteen,
the long bench there, facing the big field & blue sky.
I just sat there, watch the kids play soccer, stare & the beautiful, but eye-piercing sky.
Grey clouds gathered, and after awhile, it started raining.

As I stared at the sky, the rain drops that fall one by one,
I thought : Is the sky crying just like I do ?
I almost cried, but, I am in school. How can I cry just like that?
People will think I need more counselling.

Well, after I left, I went to third level & continue to sit down alone & ponder.
Don't know why luh. Fucking emo right?
But then I was better after band started.

Sometimes being alone is really, indescribable.
You feel so lonely, yet, peaceful.
It's nice to be alone at times, & leave out the noisy/crowded places.



After all, it is Daddy's birthday today,
it really just reminds me of the times, we did cards when we were young for him.
& my brother's handwriting was hilarious in the past.

So just,
Happy Birthday; Much love from your daughter.

Have I fallen In Love?

The BIG word : Love.

Came online, but I've got no idea what I wanna do.
It's too early, for friends to be online :/
Was browsing at blogskins, thinking whether to change mine or not.
But, I guess I don't have the mood to.
Thinking of editing pictures. But, All leads to laziness.
I'M A LAZY PIG :(

I should just do more Amaths at night to kill time :z

Tomorrow is Labour Dayy~
But, also, means Friday is Exam Day :(
I should STOP slacking.
Was kinda regret I chose D&T over 3-D Animation.
Aiyah, don't know & don't wish to find out.
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Wondered why my first sentence was about Love?
( Gosh, I was distracted by something.. Back to blog ! )

Well, many people are facing r/s problems now?
( Again I'm distracted -.- )
Okay, back to it. This month is April.
Oh, one thing I've found out. Relationships have trends too !
Like, maybe this month is all upsetting news, then next month is alot people getting together & stuff.
This applies to almost ALL of the couples.
YES; IT'S TRUE.

& now it's the bad month.
Quarrels like everywhere. Maybe both are just stressed? It's almost Mid year too.
Whatever it is, just.

Give both of you all time to
consider about it?
If holding on to it leads to
nowhere, maybe you would wanna end it?
Going on doesn't give you
happiness, It only makes one hurt.

For those who are in Love but not together:

I believe you guys can pull it
through together?
Have a break first, study
hard.
It's like honeymoon period, you
guys aren't together yet.
When you're together, you will
know what I meant :)

Why am I even talking about this when I know nothing? -.-
I mean, I am like so single & nobody wants me :s
Even there is, I don't know. Must have FEELINGS.

Oh, another thing, don't just accept someone because that person waits for you for like years?
Or what la. Unless you're certain that you'll slowly develop feelings for him/her :)
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End Of Tutorial. LOL

Those advices are for those who think you need it.
Cause I find it rather stupid too.

I'M SOOOOO HUNGRY !
WILL SOMEONE COOK FOR ME? ;(

PS; Miss Chua Xinyu, all the best to you & your ahem. For me, I will stay faithful, not to anyone, but MYSELF. thankyou for reminding me . xD