What I am to you?

Many times, I ask myself:

Who really cares about me?

The answer was never in my head, I really don't know who. If you force me to give out some answers, obviously it's my mum and nanny.
But will there be anyone else?

I was talking to a friend today, explaining what type of person I am.
Here is the summary:

I love to cry;
Hide things to myself;
Tried to share but always don't get back what I want;
Love to help friends with their problems;
Damn lazy;
No motivation- unless important la;
I share every single thing with people whom I love - Boyfriend;
Gullible;
Moodswing like mad;
Always do things already then regret;
Never had good relationship with girls;
I can never be good;

Ultimately, crying is my best friend.

My blog also! Though I keep neglecting it :( Sorry.



I don't want to be a pain in his ass you know, causing more trouble to him.
I want him to be happy too.
But today, I was really not feeling well and happy already, but his attention was all on his friend and brother.
I think I over reacted, I felt that he don't really give a damn to me.



And I think, I should open up.
I cannot treat my blog like a throw up place.
I used to blog happily, but why have things become like I sad only come blog?

My life have changed so much.
I don't want to be sad already, must be happy!



I know my blog loves me,
I love myself also.
Maybe I should give us both time.
Shouldn't think about him so much, being such a glue.
Fuck it. That shall be it :)


I should be happy more, hardworking also please :)