I need a place to hide.

After so long, all the ups and downs, we still don't understand what we need.

Couples are least prone to quarreling after being together for longer time right?

Yet it was reversed for me. I don't know what is wrong with us.

I really don't.

Is it because we're way too different in our mindset?

Or it is because of our age difference? Generation gap?

I feel helpless and worthless when he scolded me yesterday.

I know I'm being kpo, trying to help when I know nothing, but I wanna help, because I know he won't to a thing to it (how I understand him).

But in ended up that he got mad and yea, major quarrels.

Yes, I'm a fucked up person cause I hate it when you treat like nothing happened in the morning the next day.

That is me, what more you want?

I'm not like you, wake up then go "Hi baby, I'm up."

Then what?

What else can I say? "Okay."

But I tried to give in. I tried to reply in nice tone, even send you a picture and you said its ugly.

Come on, I tried my best.

But nothing to you is nice, nothing is pretty.

I think I'm even worst.

Is this going to end up even worst in the near future?

Cause if so I would just end it here. It saves me from heartpains.

You have changed, from when I met you.

I have too. After being together I demand more and you start to see me as a loathe.

I agree. Sometimes I cannot stand myself, why the fuck am I so kpo, nosey.

Always poking into your stuffs and others stuff.

Maybe I cared in the wrong way.

But I cannot stand it when I get blamed.

Just like your friend case.

Being nice but ended up not nice.

Okay, maybe your friend is right.

We should end this, what he said really affected me great time.

Till now. I swear I cannot get over it.

I always thought as long as we like/love one another, we are willing to compromise, all can be done.

But look, don't seems like that for me. Or us.

We can't even understand and give in at the same time.

What else can I do to make you happy?

Telling me to stop bothering your stuffs? I can't.

Unless you're not my friend anymore. If not I really cannot don't do it.

I think I'm just a screwed up for life.

Bye.

Loving you was the most happy part of my life, and losing you was never an option I would choose to take.