I need a place to hide.

After so long, all the ups and downs, we still don't understand what we need.

Couples are least prone to quarreling after being together for longer time right?

Yet it was reversed for me. I don't know what is wrong with us.

I really don't.

Is it because we're way too different in our mindset?

Or it is because of our age difference? Generation gap?

I feel helpless and worthless when he scolded me yesterday.

I know I'm being kpo, trying to help when I know nothing, but I wanna help, because I know he won't to a thing to it (how I understand him).

But in ended up that he got mad and yea, major quarrels.

Yes, I'm a fucked up person cause I hate it when you treat like nothing happened in the morning the next day.

That is me, what more you want?

I'm not like you, wake up then go "Hi baby, I'm up."

Then what?

What else can I say? "Okay."

But I tried to give in. I tried to reply in nice tone, even send you a picture and you said its ugly.

Come on, I tried my best.

But nothing to you is nice, nothing is pretty.

I think I'm even worst.

Is this going to end up even worst in the near future?

Cause if so I would just end it here. It saves me from heartpains.

You have changed, from when I met you.

I have too. After being together I demand more and you start to see me as a loathe.

I agree. Sometimes I cannot stand myself, why the fuck am I so kpo, nosey.

Always poking into your stuffs and others stuff.

Maybe I cared in the wrong way.

But I cannot stand it when I get blamed.

Just like your friend case.

Being nice but ended up not nice.

Okay, maybe your friend is right.

We should end this, what he said really affected me great time.

Till now. I swear I cannot get over it.

I always thought as long as we like/love one another, we are willing to compromise, all can be done.

But look, don't seems like that for me. Or us.

We can't even understand and give in at the same time.

What else can I do to make you happy?

Telling me to stop bothering your stuffs? I can't.

Unless you're not my friend anymore. If not I really cannot don't do it.

I think I'm just a screwed up for life.

Bye.

Loving you was the most happy part of my life, and losing you was never an option I would choose to take.

Nicely done.

Well, first of all, happy father's day.

Another year passed, and yea. Here we are, one year older.

Sometimes, I really think, what will become of me if my father was still around?

Would I even be what I am today?

But yea, this is life.

We can't stay forever at the same spot, I bet he want us to move on like cmon.

We can't tear forever, we only do when we're really down and missing him; right?

But to dear daddy (here it goes):

You know that every year this day I will blog to you. On my blog of course. You know I always miss you, watch movie or drama with people losing their dad, first thing I think of is you, how I didn't cherish time being with you, how I always hate you. But you know what, I think you are the best daddy on Earth. In short, I miss you. I hope now you already moved on. Whatever in after life I don't know, I just know, you'll always be remembered. I wanna dream of you again.

Last of all, I love you. I know we all do.

Happy Father's Day.

Then another major thing in life: Love.

I know I did so wrong, by going out with guys, by chit-chatting with them. I know, I am really sorry. I hope you forgive me, We start all over again, okay?

I can't lose you already. Last time: we can give it a shot.

I want to have kids with you, start a family, till we age.

I choose to change, because its you baby. (:

I want you okay?

I want the world to know that you are mine. And I'm proud that I have a bf like you baby.

I love you :)

Alright, last of all. YES, I chopped my hair. For sometime medium length :P

here is a pic:

So yea? People were saying today longer than yesterday. Maybe cause idk how to blow. But anyway, I'm done here. GOODNIGHT AND STAY TUNED!

Roller Coaster.

Been some time since I blogged.

I think that since this month started, its kinda fast paced for me.

Don't know whether its because this month was scheduled way earlier than it is, or I'm just dreading for this month.

Whatever, I know it hasn't been pretty much enjoyable.

June is here, I realised I lost weight?

I don't know if it is true. Whatever. I hope I lose more weight.

Become bones also can. Nobody cares la.

Seriously, June isn't the best time is it?

IT show is coming, holidays blahablah.

Somehow I don't feel happy?

Sick.

Forget it. I better stop here.

I might end up complaining more.

Here are some photos:

My Best friend Crying is always the best thing for me.

Goodnight.