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orange! :D

argh, i think i should really buck up in my studies.

it has been the worst in my life laaaa. *CRIES

i really don't wished to get retain. i will work hard, just like jane. =x

or anybody want motivate me? =/

having a boyfriend in this case can be helpful. =p ! at least he can help

thing is, i am single ! so i must work on my own, buck up chenpei !

NO MORE HOLIDAYS ! PASS AT LEAST 4 SUBJECTS ! JIAYOU !
i am crazy, talking to myself. =c

here are some randoms of this cute lil guy call clif :

and here are some cuties pic , and me. =s :

somehow, i miss him afterall. =/

cool? i don't know what's wth me. i doubt he will see what i wrote. OFF TO BED, BYEBYE.

MY FIRST POST:
This post shall be in striking colour. why? since this is my first post, i shall post on meaningful things. REAL meaningful.

This year, i really went through alot of changes. if you guys knew me well, you would have know that my father passed away when i was 9. i am not shameful to post this out. i believe everyone will face this stage in life. ever since, my life changed.

I must learn to be independant, mature, as an older sister, i must take good care of my brother.
but i failed to do so. my brother now, is in hostel. i am such a failure. he doesn't even care for me now. thing is, i don't really care anymore. since my family is what i cannot rely on, i tend to go for friends.

Let's not write who these friends are. i have this good friend of mine, i treat her as my sister. but thing is, she keeps lying to me. i've living with her for 15 years, i've put trust in her. when young, i would go out with her, to meet her boyfriends & so on. but everytime, she would lie to me, do those stupid things. i really wonder, why is she such a hypocrite?

If you are out with f**king guys, can't you just tell me? why should you ka jiao wei to me? it isn't the first time. everytime you'll think that i dumb, won't expose you. get this right:
YOU ARE ONE BITCH THAT IS DUMBER.

You can even lie to your cousin, cheat his money. not serious in relationships, doing all those dumb things. i am sick of you. i won't even shed a tear even if something happens to you.

Well, i know i am bad. but i really couldn't take it. if you guys were me, you would have want her to be dead. SERIOUSLY. another point, what would you call someone that changes boyfriend like changing clothes? this girl, (i don't regard her as my friend) that i know of, is like what i said. long ago, it was my primary school friend, change change change, then my di, then recently, my ex. when i realised that she was in "LOVE" with my ex, i was really praying hard, that she won't hurt him. but, it was expected, he was hurt.

I really don't mind what she did, but worst. now another friend falls for her, and they are going steady soon. all along, we thought she would be hurt by the breakups, but, it was all the guys that were hurt. this is not the end. will you cheat your father's money? like, for months? not only that, your family is facing financial problems? seriously, she is one fucking bitch that don't even worth a cent. your tutor pays the fees for you, 115$ every month, and for all 5 months, your father asked you to pay 85$ (without Amaths) , to him. but you swallowed the money. you flirt with all guys in tuition, and threatens to quit. you know, you should just do so.

I don't understand what guys see in her, flirty, whore, kena buang, look like MAN, people even say you lost your virgin. DISGUSTING. nobody understands you? or what? you are the worst girl i have ever seen. always acting innocent. PUKES*

I know, the perspective of you guys reading the post towards me will change, but i don't care. i choose what i wanna write. at least i didn't write their names. this year for me is a HUGE change. all i wished for is a listening ear. now that my blog is done, it will be my listening ear. (: