The kind of feeling

I want to describe what I am feeling now but I can't. 

I hate how empty it feels to be alone. Period.

What is with me?

After being in so many relationship, I still find myself stuck with the same shit over and over again. Is it me being the problem here?

Why do I always expect so much? But really is it wrong to expect a little bit more from someone who calls himself my boyfriend? Or did I overdo it?

I just need you to help, you don't have to tell me in my face what kind of person you are just to reject me🙂