Birthday.

Hello, its 27 again. And this time its march 27, one day after my birthday.

What am I doing here?
To complain. About things. People. Relationship.


I don't know why I have so many things to complain. Maybe its like what someone said, ima perfectionist, I want everything to be perfect-my way; my style.

Yet most of the times I wont speak about it, I want that someone or whoever to know it.
Because I feel that if he/she understands me, he/she will know what I want and how I want things to be.

Unfortunately, I haven't found someone that truly knows me.

Its sad you know, because though I might have friends who are friends with me for years, they still don't know what I want.

Makes me feel: what for I have friends then?


Here are the list of things I liked/ never liked:

- I like surprises.
- I hate people to ask me what I want (for gifts/presents)
- I like you to let me cool down and talk to me after awhile (in a fight or what)
- I hate to make decisions even its my big day. (If you got the heart you will plan all for me)
- I like to stfu when im not in the mood
- I hate friends who ask bout my bday when they have no intention at all to celebrate for me.
- I like presents more than treats.
- I hate good/best friends who knows its my bday yet they don't wish me. (They should fuck off from my life)
- I like people to wish me in texts than FB. (Fb is for losers la)



A lot more right?
This year I only ate cake once, compared to last year its nothing.
I will post again with all the people I wanna thanks.

And to some, or rather the one, that I don't wanna see. You better get lost with all your new friends.


Last, happy belated birthday to me.
(I shall pamper myself with a watch soon)

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Holiday

I haven't been blogging have I? And everytime I do, its with my phone. And phone cannot upload pictures which is damn irritating.


Now, im blogging in bangkok.
In case you didn't know im on a 5d4n holiday with my ni and his family.
The trip is enjoyable so far but also depressing.

Idk if its just me or what. The first night here I cried badly. Now last night I cried too.
Somehow there's a lot on my mind and I just cannot figure them or what, stress builds up and the only way to release: crying.


I know im being hard on him, so demanding.
First I want him to quit badly, now I want him to earn money. Seriously what do I want?


Out of nowhere I can just get angry, I really don't know what's wrong. Can't be pms already, its way past.

Think I've taken him way for granted. I think he's getting sick of me, I think happy moments wont last long.
I think he will not want me one day, as always.


It was our 4th month yesterday and here I am talking about all these. Thanks lil mind of mine. You sure know how to make my fragile heart fall way to the bottom.

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