Well being

Wow.


So last night (or rather this morning) 3am I looked through my Facebook photos trying to look for the different uniforms I wore before.
But turns out I was looking more at the people who left me with good memories.
Photos are indeed one of the best thing used to capture that moment of happiness. Be it good memories or bad, you can never forget what happened at the instant you see a photo.

Then now, because I wanted to blog, I tried to see if I could upload pictures here directly from my iPad. Turns out it brought me to an album which has ALL the photos I used to upload to this blog.
So it took me through some of the good memories.

In this blog it consists of photos of my ex boyfriends, used to be really close girlfriends and along with some close friends.
Sadly, almost all the girls featured in my blog are no longer close to me.
And the ex boyfriends all have a life of their own.
The remaining friends, oh yes maybe still meet up once in blue moon.


So what happened?
I often ask myself why this why that. (If you follow my twitter you will know)
But the why that I never fail to NOT get over with is why do relationship/friendship fail.
So many girlfriends especially just walked out of my life easily.
What happened? I forgot. (i have really bad memory for unhappy things)
Sometimes (like now) thinking back I will feel sad.  Sad at the fact that someone I once trust so much, and would love to do all the bitching shopping whatever girls would do with friend is no longer around.
Not by my side at least. Then I realise that's part of growing up right? They always say people come and go.

Well, feeling more guilty was the fact that I left several guys so heartbroken.
Those pictures reminded me of how happy we were when we were together. Looking at their smiling faces I knew we were genuinely happy.
Then again what happened?
Sorry but I fell for someone else.
Although I still miss the times with each and everyone of you, I know our fate has come to an end. There will not be a chance that I might be back with you, but I really loved the times we were together.
I hope each of you are happy with your life now, at least I will feel better?

To my current boyfriend, amazingly we went through close to 2 years already.
So far so good? He might not be my ideal kind of man but I am glad to have him still! (In fact while typing this he just came down to send me one bottle of plain water)
I am sorry I have been comparing you with the previous one, I should know you both are so different but it's my habit.

We will soon enter another phase of life, where I will start working and so many things will change.
I will not know if we will still have time for each other, since now already we are struggling with work commitments, but I hope all goes well. If not I can really go be a nun. LOL


So bloggy, thank you too, for being my listening ear through everything.
I might not have talked to you as often now, but I am thankful you remembered everything I told you!
I will try my best to talk more to you, once I change my phone ok!


AND TO ALL WHO ARE STILL WITH ME, THANK YOU FOR BEING THERE. I PROMISE TO TREASURE EACH AND EVERYONE OF YOU. I LOVE YOU.