Smoking.

I guess its evident that I dislike smoking? It was never my interest since my father died due to lung cancer.
Knowing that my father got cancer means there will be chance i'll get it too? Plus friends around me smoke too, even harder to not get it.

Not saying I dislike people whom smoke, but I really just wish for a smoke free environment. Not because im afaid to die but I detest the smell a lot? Just so bad man.

I was glad he don't smoke when I got to know him, whole 9 months without smoke.
Yet now, he picked it up again, Idk is it because of me or not.
Yes, I lied. Saying that I wasn't sad or what. Truth is he still matter somewhere inside. I don't know if its because I still like him or what, but he will still be on my mind as and when his image wants to appear.
Usually when im alone, its when im most vulnerable with his images.


I just cannot believe he took up smoking again. Knowing that his heart is not good, yet he smokes. The thought totally pains me. & I thought bout our promises one of it being not to smoke and "learn bad" inside ns.

Promises are meant to be broken, with this I learn. Anyway I was the one who broke the promise first, I got nothing more to demand since its over.

Guess I will just have to learn to accept the outcome of what I did in the first place. Moving forward is still the best option after all.