The 10th meeting .

We met , we chatted , & we ended .
I don't know what's going on ,
I have no idea why you wanna let it go ,
I certainly don't wish to think so much about it .
Perhaps it's time to let go .

I don't wish to say much .
Since you can let it go so easily ,
I shouldn't broad over it so much as well .
Maybe i meant nothing to you at all .
Things come & go .
I should learn it the hard way also .

My words hurt . Definitely it does .
Everything i say , was to cover whatever that i did not dare to say .
" I hate you " = " I love you "
Asking you go find other girls , was just being jealous .
Always being mean to you , was to prove i cared .
I tried hard enough to not compare you with others .
I've use all ways to be a better girl .
But I'm sure , I'm still not the perfect one .

November , this month .
Supposedly meant to be a happy month ,
& it started with all sorts of problems .
Friends , Studies , Love , Family .
Jasmine told me , " Let's go out & have a drink . Or want come out now ? To drown yourself . "
Is it worth ? to harm my own body because I'm troubled .
I don't think so . At the end , the problem still remains unsolved .

Today is the 10th meeting .
4days ago you were complaining you miss me .
I think it'll be time for me to complain it now .
I'm sure you will do well without me .
But i don't know if i can .
Before everything end , I've got something to tell you .

You're not a bad guy ,

You're not don't worth my tears .

I just cannot take the fact that ,

you're telling me to let go when everything is like , just starting .

How i wish i can break the chain of being single ,

How i wish you could help me .

But now all i can say is ,

I'll still remain single ,

& perhaps that's the only way .

I won't give myself another chance ,

unless i can prove myself wrong .

& i guess i'll have to celebrate my birthday all alone next year .

Too many things to tell you .

But i think it's all irrelevant now .

Before it really ends ,

i just wanna say " iloveyou" .