I cried again .

Have you ever cry because you lost in a quarrel ?

Or when you fought over something which is insignificant ?

I will never cry over those things .

But I'm not a superwoman ,

That goes like , " I've to save the Earth ! "

Crying deep inside me , trying to put on a brave front .

That's me i guess .

For things that you guys go like , " Why bother ? "

I do care .

Call me a weakling , or a crybaby .

It'll never bring me down .

But when faced with my personal problems ,

I can break down , almost immediately .

Yea , I lost my cool today .

I was angered by what my brother did .

It seems that he don't fucking care if i went to visit him or not .

I went to the other end of Singapore for him ,

yet he just told me :

" You could have stayed at home , nobody ask for you . "

I held my tears .

I thought he was the only " FRIEND " i had .

The more i thought , the more i want to walk out then .

I walked away few minutes later .

& stomped off right after the gate was opened .

I know it was wrong to leave my mum walking alone .

But i was too angry to say something nice .

I remained silent all the way back till i reached home .

I guess nobody could really cheer me up .

Like somebody will used to do .

Whoever the person will be ,

Why can't someone just cheer me ?

My poor mother is getting on her age ,

With health problems here & there .

I can't do Anything ,

Not even the slightest thing like taking care of her .

I wished somehow , I really didn't appear in this world .

This complicated & realistic world .

This month will be a tough month for me,

I'll just bear it through , right chenpei ? (: